This… this is a “take 2” of sorts. After publishing my last post, I realized I had so much more to say. And most of it had to do with me.
So, here it goes, the raw, honest truth [deep breath]…
I’m sad to say, I have also been on the other side of hurt.
I have also been that leader or that person who has accidentally hurt someone. I have had to apologize… more than once… for hurts I’ve caused or mistakes I’ve made throughout my life. I don’t always get it right. Sometimes, I get it ALL wrong…
But, I am thankful that in all situations, God is full of grace. And forgiveness. Because heaven knows I am a sinner and I have made mistakes.
Grace: the free and unmerited favor of God.
Forgiveness: the action or process of forgiving or being forgiven.
I remember the day I truly understood Jesus as my Savior. I was in my early 20’s and for the very first time, I heard Jesus speaking to me…right in the middle of a worship service. Even more, right in the middle of a worship song. He used the words of that song to tell me who I was to Him…even though I felt like a screw up. He used the words to let me know how very much He loved me, even though I felt I didn’t deserve it.
“I am your beloved. Your creation. And you love me as I am. You have called me chosen, for Your Kingdom. Unashamed to call me your own. I am your beloved.”
And I cried. And cried. Until I couldn’t sing anymore. And in my heart, I gave my life to my Savior. Jesus. I surrendered. I let Him love me. I let Him sing over me. I let Him hold me, while I cried. I had never felt so weak, yet so strong in all my life.
For all of you who have made mistakes, just like I have…first, let me, on behalf of any hurt you have felt from a leader, apologize. Leaders, are human too…and unfortunately we make mistakes too. Please forgive us.
Second, I would like to tell you…your mistakes can be forgiven. Every single one of us, leader or not, have fallen short of the glory of God…and don’t deserve Heaven. But God.
He loved us so very much…that He made a way. And that way’s name, is Jesus.
Romans 10:9 “That if you confess with your mouth, ‘Jesus is Lord,’ and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.”
And my friends, this is just the beginning…just the invitation. Tonight, thinking about all my faults and things I’ve done wrong…I’m thankful I answered His invitation. Thankful for forgiveness. Thankful for grace. All of it, undeserved.
Which leaves me humbled and forever thankful.